squirrelly88

there's so much pain inside my heart and i just want it all to stop to feel the words subsiding back while drifting through the endless black numbness overtaking my soul as i feel compelled to end it all screams rise from all around as i fall desperately to the ground and while i'm left alone and upset wondering how to forgive and forget my mistakes rise up to drown it out and all my thoughts give way to doubt lying there in blood and tears reflecting on all the empty years wishing i had a second coming to stop my self from years of running to correct all the wrongs and make them right to put myself up to a harder fight but

Light softly shimmers in the air surrounding your frame; Little tufts of lighter hair flipping up around your temples. I am in love. Shirt billowing around your small frame, tightly pulled into place with the trademark belt around your waist. Sleeves pulled up by mid-afternoon, exposing the layers of the man from the moon--Or Pluto, rather. I heave a sigh. I could stare into those heavenly blue eyes for all eternity, counting every lash until the very end of time itself. I am in love. ------------------------- Gold shimmers in the air As gold as the ringlets falling on the porcelain face of the immortal Claudia And as round as

Broken Soul- by Jesse L Mitchell Drifting through the endless streets, Empty houses pass around me. Breaking into a cool sweat, If only to break free of the Shell. Drifting into that state of mind, Pain meandering through it all, Stabbing into every thought, Finally the numbness overtakes me. Black, simply black forming, Swallowing everything, everyone, Will I ever return from the abyss? Am I ever to escape the Shell? Black, then suddenly a voice calls. A hand, reaching forward, reaching, Without thinking, I take hold.     Strangely, there is no fear to be found. He calls upon me, to me, Courage emits from within my bones.

Words to leave by. the sound of beating rain upon my beating heart destined to fail, always to fall apart and yet here I am, unweathered by the storm still im broken by every word of scorn the feel of emptiness, within my empty soul left wordless, by my strange lack of control and yet here I am, trying to survive still everyone know im just barely alive your endless love, shown by the endless ring destined to wear it, forever on my hand and yet here I am, trying to push you away still everyone knows I just want you to stay 1-9-07

HATE how can one word be so cold like standing alone in the rain like teardrops on my forehead on my face i am alone alone, listening to the sounds the resonating silence never ceasing but constantly mocking my emptiness echoing back the pain an endless reminder that i am alone taunting me with escape, with shelter with warmth i stretch my fingers out long and lean reaching, muscles taut but no just like that its gone just within my grasp its taken away and once again i am left empty and alone with nothing but hate like standing in the rain without a coat just freezing and afraid and always empty

you are a raindrop large and round attacking my forehead you are that emotionally depleting raindrop i only thought existed in my head in my dreams but i have the power to change you to transform you into that annoying pinprick into sunday morning raindrops all it takes is one flick of the switch one blowdryer set on high and WHAM!!! you have evaporated.... how does it feel?? time heals all wounds... right?

falling past the embers slipping through the past longing for stability i feel your strong, tight grasp you never want to lose me i hear it in your voice shaking with each heavy breathe tell me, is this the right choice? here i try to push you away scared of holding on afraid of being hurt again afraid of letting you down yet here i am once again still clinging to your side because happiness after all is what i feel inside

Teardrops through all that surrounds me at first there was laughter at first there was joy now only sadness surrounds me i thought all the pain had gone i had thought it was over it all but new events make the wound reopen and i am left to suffer alone left alone with only my teardrops the only comfort i have found a gateway to my inner horror and as the wounds continue to widen as my heart continues to sadden i scream for away to make it stop i reach for a solution to the pain shiny objects at my fingertips sharp blades to fight this disastor and as i try to find a way out i am left motionless on the floor bathed in puddl

everything i was once held dear is broken everyone i once held close, now stolen and here i lie on the floor tears run colder than before i question why i'm even here at all as the words come stumbling out i tell you quick to shut your mouth because i just dont want to hear the reasons anymore i just dont care anymore i cant care anymore so leave me here, more broken then before but leave me here, with dignity and valor for i put up a brilliant fight though i lost my heart at first light but i never will forget a second of it all because i loved you 4-24-07