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Last Regrettheres so much pain inside my heart  and i just want it all to stop  to feel the words subsiding back  while drifting through the endless black  
 
numbness overtaking my soul  as i feel compelled to end it all  screams rise from all around  as i fall desperately to the ground   
and while im left there sad and alone  i realize now i could've won  but all the mistakes drown it out  drown out all the now with-held shouts   
lying there in blood and tears  reflecting on all the empty years  wishing i had a second coming  to stop my self from years of ruin Last Regret
in Fixed on 8/13/07
Untitled2everything i was once held dear is broken  everyone i once held close, now stolen   
and here i lie on the floor  tears run colder than before  i question why i'm even here at all   
as the words come stumbling out  i tell you quick to shut your mouth  because i just dont want to hear the reasons anymore   
i just dont care anymore  i cant care anymore   
so leave me here, more broken then before  but leave me here, with dignity and valor   
for i put up a brilliant fight  though i lost my heart at first light  but i never will forget a second of it Untitled2
in Fixed on 7/22/07
TeardropsTeardrops   
 
through all that surrounds me   
at first there was laughter   
at first there was joy   
now only sadness surrounds me   
i thought all the pain had gone   
i had thought it was over it all   
but new events make the wound reopen   
and i am left to suffer alone   
left alone with only my teardrops   
the only comfort i have found   
a gateway to my inner horror   
and as the wounds continue to widen   
as my heart continues to sadden   
i scream for away to make it stop   
 Teardrops
in Fixed on 6/19/07
Untitledfalling past the embers  slipping through the past  longing for stability  i feel your strong, tight grasp   
you never want to lose me  i hear it in your voice  shaking with each heavy breathe  tell me, is this the right choice?   
here i try to push you away  scared of holding on  afraid of being hurt again  afraid of letting you down   
yet here i am once again  still clinging to your side  because happiness after all  is what i feel inside Untitled
in Fixed on 6/19/07
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Nights of the DamnedBehind a curtain of twilight and a blanket of the night there is a world that goes unseen by mortal society, an underworld with its own culture and law. In this society there are beings that stand high above the mortal world and look down upon those who are blind to the truth. To them, mortals are little more than cattle bound by the shackles of time. But of all the creatures that dwell within this dark underworld of monsters and demons, there is one race that has been around since the beginning. Over the centuries they have come to be know by many names, Nepalese, Strigoe, kiang shi and many more. But out of all the names and labels, one nam Nights of the Damned
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Nights of the Damned Episode 1Nights of the damned:                                                   Episode 1: A new life…sort of   
 A mid summers night in the city, the humidity clung to everything making the air damp and thick. A subtle breeze swept through the streets offering little comfort, like a glimpse of an angel from hell. But that comfort was absent in the dwelling of one Allen Clovis, a rather uni Nights of the Damned Episode 1
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dont know what to say here

Journal Entry: Mon Aug 13, 2007, 8:38 AM
i have no idea what to say here without coming off as an emo kid lol. my poetry i put here pretty much sums up what my emotions are like. pretty scary huh? but as for whats really going on? i honestly have no idea. i have so much pain in my life that just keeps trying to seep out, and i keep holding it in, not dealing with it. i have no idea how to deal with everything. i thought all my problems were solved, but they just keep resurfacing. i was told i would have relapses. i didnt know theyd be like this. i didnt know theyd continual hurt everyone around me. i dont know what to do anymore. the one person who can help me, im not allowed to see. the person who saved my life. they keep this person from me. it make mes scream at all hours of the day. i break down crying at random. i just want the pain to stop. i know its not that easy. so i write poetry to release the pain. it helps more than i ever imagined it could. poetry is my out lit. a lot of the times it comes as being a little scary i know. but id rather have some scary poems that keep it inside any longer. i guess thats all thats going on with me right now. im having a rough patch. a very painful rough patch. so maybe ill put up a few more poems this week. we'll see.

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~Deul7:iconDeul7: Jun 19, 2007, 6:29:18 PM
YAY! Welcome to DA hon :hug:

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Dib: Sorry...I'm...late...horrible nightmare visions.
Ms. Bitters: Its called life dib, sit down.
~NCKemp756:iconNCKemp756: Jun 19, 2007, 2:36:06 PM
YAY It's jesse! :petting:

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*inObrAS:iconinObrAS: Jun 19, 2007, 12:36:42 PM
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